A Birthday Letter to My Best Friend

jeetaCollageDear Jacinta,

Sixteen years ago today my best friend was born. I was then only eighteen months old, but I think I was quite excited for my newest baby doll! From what they’ve told me, once they gave you to me to hold I was unwilling to give you back! But how could they steal “my” baby?!? 😉

Well, it is very unreal to me that sixteen years have already come and gone! Just before my very eyes you have grown and are maturing into a beautiful young woman! Through the years you have always had my back. You have been the friend to me when I least deserved it. You always have an encouraging word and a jokeless joke to give me. Whenever I feel most lonely, I know I can count on you! If ever there is anything troubling me, you are always the first to be concerned.

It’s just unbelievable that we could go from one second as little girls with bows in our hair playing baby dolls, to now driving and much more interested in make-up and chatting! We always were such good buddies, right?!? I know, we have had our ups and downs, disagreements and quarrels, and even our anger towards each other. But never once in any of those times did I question your love for me and my love for you. We have grown-up together, shared everything from toys, clothes, secrets, and heartache. It’s such a great comfort to me knowing that I shall have someone to go through life with. Makes this crazy dark world brighter and much more full of life and love!

I pray that as the years go by, we grow even closer! That no matter the distance we always stay in touch! And since I can’t put it very meaningfully, I found this poem:

A Sister Just Like You

I just want to let you know

You mean the world to me;

Only a heart as dear as yours

Would give so unselfishly.

The many things you’ve done

All the times that you were there;

Help me know deep down inside

How much you really care.

Even though I might not say

I appreciate all you do;

Richly blessed is how I feel

Having a sister just like you!

Don’t forget that, darling! That because I have a sister, I shall always have a friend! Thank you for always being the perfect and best friend anyone could ever wish for! ❤

God bless you today on your sweet sixteenth birthday!!! 🙂

Love your fortunate elder sister,

Genevieve ❤ ❤ ❤

“Side by side, or miles apart… We are sisters, connected by the heart!” ❤

 

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To Where You Are

Dear Theodore,

I am sorry that I have neglected writing to you in quite some time. Life has been quite busy and I have not had the opportunity. But now I have some time and would like to share some thoughts. 🙂

I know that I have mentioned before–on my previous blog--that I fell in love with music after you died, but I have not yet gone in to explaining just how much music has helped me. Just the  melody mixed with words to create a meaning can touch someone so much, and explain how that was for me. There are so many songs–ones which I heard right after you died, and others which have only just been released–that have helped me and encouraged me! The list is too great, it would take too long to list them all.—-In fact, I do not even know them all off the top of my head!!!—-I will incorporate some of the songs with my post(s), but again, these will only be a few of a very large quantity.

The first which I’d like to share in this post is the song, which has touched me more than I could ever explain, is To Where You Are by Josh Groban. In this song, (which you can find here), he is singing about someone whom he loved that he lost. . . Which is very straightforward. But if you not only listen to the words, but feel them you will discover a whole new meaning. He begins with the possibility that his loved one is still present. He claims that this is an option, because their memory is so vivid and clear in his mind. He goes farther when he sings “deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak. . .” Just let that sink in. He is so lost in thought of his loved one that he can hear them speaking to them. It’s like our Christian way of prayer. We pray to God and then wait for him to reply, and at some point we believe that God is speaking to us. When we talk of “speaking” here, we are not meaning that it is like one is speaking to their friend. But it’s something you feel. You sense it and hear it in your heart. As Groban goes on to say, “you’re still an inspiration. . .” What deep meaning that one line holds. He feels them speaking and inspiring him through his life. He knows that they are with him wherever he goes, and in his line “that you are watching over me, from up above. . .” They are so present in his heart, that even after losing them, he knows that they are not even gone. They are still watching over him, caring for him, inspiring him, and speaking to him in his hearts so can show how much they love him.

In the chorus, he shows the longing in his heart and just how much he misses them. With starting “fly me up to where you are. . .”, he clearly shows just how he longs to see them “if only for a while. . .” I will have to say that the chorus is what always gets me. Well, just listen to what he is saying:

“Fly me up to where you are,
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are”

His heart is aching to see the one whom he loves. It sings out in a troubled way, but puts its sorrow so beautifully that anyone who hears it can not but hope that they too can see their own loved one. Everyone at some point in their lives have lost someone so dear to them that their death has almost cost them their own life. We all can understand what he is telling us in this chorus. I can not help but wish that too. I know that at the end of my life I will see you again, but I want to see you now. I want to be reassured of your happiness. I want to see you smile. Hear you laugh. It does not have to last very long, just a minute, or even less. . . just a few seconds. Moments. Just to see you there, happier than ever with the angels and God by your side! I want to see that heavenly vision. I want to see you.

I have written a lot but I want to share one more thing. At the end of his second verse, he sings: “And that love will live on, and never leave. . .” Do I really have to explain that one? It is very straightforward. The love which he has for them, will stay with him forever. It can not lessen, only grow and strengthen. The same goes for me. The love which I have for you will last with me and I will die with it on my heart. It is something that can no be replaced. It is something that I cherish. Even though the more I love you the more I hurt, I do not wish to love you less. In fact, I desire to love you even more and more, because I know that it will bring me closer to you. For as he says: “A breath away’s not far to where you are!”

Until we meet again, I remain your affectionate sister,

Genevieve

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